Damien Ng Wei Jie’s Experience [he/him]

My experience with The Work On Resigning was a very longgggg and hard one. After the work on the self, I felt like I understood myself better and knew what my habits were. However, after I worked on resigning, I discovered that I had more habits and that I am too used to looking for results. In my daily life, I noticed that I am very product oriented in the sense that I always had an end game in mind. This of course went against the concept of resigning where I was meant to be in the moment and not think about the final product. As an actor, being in the moment should be easy but unfortunately it was not and I struggled hahaha, Throughout the process, I was constantly pushed out of my comfort zone as I had to learn for myself to let go or to let myself be taken by the moment and the people around me. I had to allow myself put down my walls so that I can trust myself and my fellow participants to create beautiful work/etudes out of our personal scores aka being in a collective space or in other words finding my space in the ensemble. Overall, I learnt that I need to be open to being taken in the moments and even though I’m not there yet at least I’m aware of it. And that is important. It is a work in process and that is fine.