Clement Yeo’s Experience (Participant) [he/him]

I think the only way to encapsulate how it felt throughout this ten-week programme is to truly re-live it again. Throughout these ten weeks, I found some parts of myself that I never knew were there - some desirable and some not so. I remember there was this focus on receiving and giving. We experimented on our own how we should be receiving and giving - and realised that there was a weirdly sweet spot where the role of giving and receiving did not even matter. Through the various exercises, I learnt my own ways of giving and receiving and there were moments when I didn’t really appreciate how I was giving or receiving. For this programme, there is always a facilitator or third part, if you will, that will give us another take on how it looks from the outside. That was where I feel the unlearning begins as well and where a journey takes place. But all these do not happen in a vacuum. The people in the space matter, which makes the space matter as well. We are given full autonomy on how we should operate as humans - as us, but there are guidelines on how to move forward. I remember we were toying with the idea of channeling energies and how we should direct our association to someone else. There was this one time when I had an association and we had to repeat it a few times to find something in it so that we could expand this discovery. I repeated and repeated it but it only got ‘boring’ - I could not find a way out, and I thought that's all there was to it. That was until we had to re-do our association in relation to someone and I learnt, yet again, another discovery of myself. We will have discussions after that and that is when you feel there is sometimes a sense of solidarity around you. What you are feeling could also be what others feel in a room. I always like to akin moments like this to myself taking an evening jog. I like to run because it takes my mind off things but ironically it does not. As I run, I pass by places and people, and sometimes they remind me of things - they are channels of associations that remind me of my place as a human in this vast universe. So how do I conclude all these experiences in this whiny tiny paragraph - it is absolutely hard. The only way that is humanly possible is to experience it yourself. To be human - that’s what this space is all about.